Wordless Wednesday; What the cat kneads.

Jeff thought this was funny enough to record. Yes. That is me and my cat Chicken.(kneading on my squishy parts)

And today.

My day started off late. Aedan slept until noon, therefore Jeff and I slept until noon. That is the first time in about 2 years. Jeff got up with Aedan and I took my usual 15 minutes to roll out of bed.

I didn't hear the mail get dropped in the box today, it must have come early. When Jeff took the garbage out he saw we had already gotten it. No check today, but I did get a magazine and the disconnect notice. Hm. Sucky.

I told Jeff we need to get rid of a few things to try to generate the funds to pay this bill. He is still trying to get it without getting rid of anything. I am still SO ANGRY about this bill. I don't think we should have to pay it.

I got my psychic reading for our conception date:
 Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of February 2011 from a cycle that begins in January. The baby shows as a boy and his EDD/birthdate is referenced the 30th of October 2011 and the 5th of November 2011.
Lets see how that turns out. That is a little later and the opposite gender of what I am hoping for, but of course that is only 2 months longer than it took to make Aedan. That would also give me the possibility of a Halloween baby.

I am off to deal with the City

I am wearing my angry pants.

I am so mad about my power bill. I live in a small town that has their own municipal utility company. They are not required to leave utilities on for disabled persons and families with children, those laws only apply to larger companies. I have been charged $450, $550, and $650 for December January and February. March was our lowest bill at $250. This is insane. My husband is on disability and we can not afford to pay this on top of his medical expenses. Right now we owe just under $1000 for our utilities. What do we have to pay it? Nada. We have struggled to pay these bills since we moved here. We are not the only ones who have bills like this, over 300 people made complaints and they just say it is our homes using 6000 (and more) kwh, the average COMMERCIAL building in our area uses just over 1000 kwh, how are we using that much?

I am hoping our first time home buyer credit shows up. It is due between two weeks ago and July 17. The IRS told us to contact them if we haven't received it by then. I think the mailman thinks I am nuts. I burst out the door and check the mail as soon as it is in the box, and that is the days I don't pop around the house and find him.

Can $1000 fall into my lap before May 25? Doubt it. But I can dream. I am most likely getting my utilities shut off this month, depending on how long it takes for my home buyer credit to show up it might be off for a while. I will be staying with family until then. This is not fun, and I am outraged. The city made us think they were going to allow us to make partial payments until we can pay it off, not anymore. They allowed on month to be delayed and then BOTH balances have to be paid in full. I am so angry. I need to get a loan.

I can live with that.

Today started off crappy. 6am I hear Aedan crying. I sent Jeff in to assess the damage, it turns out that Jeff didn't look at the clock so he didn't think to put Aedan back in bed. I got to sleep to until 9:15 but I had been woken up about 5 times before that point.

We looked out the window at about noon to see the neighbor's dog trotting up the road. We managed to get her back in the fence just for her to escape time after time after time. I called the neighbor and she came back and put the dog inside.

Then we went to Jeff's sister's house to let the kids play. The neighbor offered us her crib and Jeff said he id going to buy a new one, I liked hearing that. We didn't have a new crib with Aedan so he said I get to pick one out once we make baby #2. We were going to put Aedan back in a crib until he got a little bigger but we are keeping him in the toddler bed.

Jeff's sister talked to me about baby stuff, she has a little girl that will be growing out of her swing and such soon so she will hold onto it for us. That is nice of her although I am not sure how long it will take to actually get the BFP this time around. (BFP= big fat positive)

I spent my down time today on the TTC forums I used when we were making Aedan. It was nice to be back in a place where I could talk about it as much as I wanted and not be looked at like I was wearing a wild animal as a hat. Seriously, talking about making babies makes people squirrely. Guys shoot looks to their wives that scream NO. and girls get all catty and want to make a baby before everyone else Sure, they will be happy for you if you get pregnant but only if they get their BFP first. I have been down this road before, it is best to do your talking in a forum where after you get your BFP you leave and no one holds a grudge (well no one that matters)

Another great thing about the forum is graduating to the pregnancy area and sharing your story there. Everyone needs a pregnancy buddy. Ah. It is nice to dream of baby stuff. I am window shopping still and it makes me happy. I need to post this now so I can watch Lost.

A day in the life.

So today has been a wee bit *RAWR* stressful. Aedan is not having a good day, therefore I am not having a good day. I have had super clingy toddler up my butt all day. I did manage to get 20 minutes of "me time" in the form of a shower.The only bad part about the shower was getting the crap scared out of me twice before I got to actually enjoy my shower. First, one cat (Chicken) ran through the cat door as I was opening it, I peed a little on that one. Then, I got into the bathroom and the other cat (Critter) was INSIDE the shower with the door closed. Best I can figure we left the shower door open, she must have walked in and Chicken bumped the door shut on her. After that I found another bad part of the shower...my Black Raspberry Vanilla soap from Springvale Soap is almost gone. Although I am getting some more soaps soon, custom scents.

Last night I was up late sewing Aedan a SpongeBob blanket, I had to move my sewing machine from the office into our bedroom since the office is right next to Aedan's room. That is not the best place to sew at night. I am looking forward to getting some new fabrics, I have some projects that I want to start on.

I am in the market for night time diapers and some new day time diapers also. The snaps on the used diapers we have are shot. I have to keep pants on Aedan to avoid finding a naked baby every time I turn around. I also have permission to buy a snazzy custom diaper bag since we are trying for another baby.I know where I am going to get it too... http://www.etsy.com/shop/BrookeVanGoryDesigns leave it to RockerByeBaby to talk about things until I buy them all up. SPEAKING of RockerByeBaby I am going to buy some stuff from her shop as well. http://www.etsy.com/shop/RockerByeBaby?section_id=6528652

I feel like I am writing to no one since this blog has like NO readers but still I like to vent. I am off to make my sewing plan for the night...and window shop some more.

Baby Fever

So I have been taken over by baby fever. I am going to add it to the list of stuff to blog about. Who do I blame for this fever? A few people. Lets start with my friend Nichole...who is about to pop out twins any day now, then lets throw in RockerByeBaby who has been posting about a pregnant friend, and then lets sprinkle in all the little things like cute baby stuff I see, the fact that my ovaries tingle when I see an infant, and Aedan is becoming independent.

I am uncertain of what amount of info I am going to share when it comes to the naughty bits. Hey, I know I overshare a LOT. But no one reads this crap anyway...so off we go on the talking about baby dancing.

This whole trying to conceive thing is so different than last time. I am not fresh off a loss this time, and I am not having the cycle issues of the way back when. Lets hope things go smoothly this time. Remember, It only took me 6 months to get the surprise that was Gabryel, our angel baby. Then 8 months to get Aedan. So now...I am guessing within 12 months.

Something to remember about my boys:

• Gabryel was conceived in late June of 2007 was due March 30, 2008 and left us on October 20, 2007. He was 3 ounces and 5 inches long.

• Aedan was conceved on my 22 birthday June 20, 2008 was due March 13, 2009 and was born March 5, 2009 via emergency c section after failed induction and 12 hours of labor, the bugger was too big to fit out the exit. He was 10 pounds 22 inches long.

So? Wouldn't it be strange if we had another June conception and March due date?

I am already baby crazy, I am window (amazon) shopping and I am excited because I have NO baby stuff in my house. That means I get to buy new stuff, we didn't have ANYTHING new for Aedan. We got a butt load of used stuff and I got stuck on bed rest and didn't get to shop. I know better this time. I want a baby shower...I didn't get one of those before. C'mon baby....I am stoked! Lets do this.

Plan B Review

I recently read Plan B | What to do When God Doesn’t Show Up the Way You Thought He Would? By Pete Wilson and I have to admit I was pleasantly surprised with the whole book.


This book was very well written, it was easy to read and captivated me to the end. I have never been one to read a book of this genre but I am glad I made the exception. There was one thing, however, that made this book a little hard for me personally to read, and that was the emotion in the words. I had a hard time reading certain stories being told in the book because I had experienced them firsthand. I nearly broke down when reading two stories of the loss of a child since my husband and I lost our first son.


This book was deep. I had to stop and think about what I was reading, there were no answers on the pages, but instead there were thoughts and dilemmas that tore my mind away and buried it in thought. This book took longer than I assumed it would to read, but that is because of the stimulating nature of the words.


I would recommend this book not only to people in tough with their faith, but also those who need to find God. I give this book 5 stars and I have already passed it on to a friend that I know will appreciate it as much as I did.

Aedan and Sleeping

Over the 14 months of Aedan's life we have lived in 4 different houses, he has slept in 6 different rooms, and we are finally getting him settled in his own room.

We moved into our home in December after a long jumbled mess of moves during Jeff's cancer treatment. We lost our apartment, moved in with my brother, then Jeff's mother and now here. Aedan has slept in the family bed since he was born (minus a six week period when Jeff was post-op and on pain killers) and he started sleeping in his toddler bed at 12 months. His toddler bed was next to our bed and our bed is just on the floor so we were "on the same level" so he was pretty much in the family bed still.

Tonight we moved his toddler bed into his room, and as we speak he is sleeping in his own room, in his own bed. I thought this day would never come. The last few weeks Aedan took it upon himself to stop napping. completely. I did not care for this. Then he decided sleeping wasn't fun either....so he wasn't going to do it. We learned this at 2am when he was still talking to himself...bright eyed and bushy tailed. It was like he was a robot. Me and Jeff? Not so chipper.

Tonight was the night for change. 9pm was bath time, 9:30 I started reading him a story, sometime around 10 I left the room and let the drama start. I heard crying...wait! playing. crying. no? playing. knocking....and crying at the door. Then the crying faded, he had climbed in bed and was asleep at 10:20pm. He woke up in the first paragraph of text (lets say 10:50) and I reassured him with a little pat on the back and he curled up and went back to sleep.

I am optimistic but I can still see this going downhill fast. I have one BIG issue with this arrangement: his room is on the other side of the house. I am definitely not a fan of that, I am crazy over protective, I still check to see if he is breathing at least once a night. (and that was when he slept NEXT to me) So we will see how this night goes. I would love to have him sleep in his own bed, in his own room...but we'll see.

Never Let You Go

 After reading the book Never Let You Go by Erin Healy I have been asked to write a review. Unfortunately it was not an easy book to read. The beginning was drab and hard to get into. The whole story seemed dry and similar to many other books I have read.  I had trouble staying focused on reading this book but I think it was just the style of writing and lack of expeirence of the author.



The characters were very simple and could have used some more dynamics.The story did however improve as the book went on, suspense was a key in the plot but the poor start really killed the momentum. There was an overwhelming dryness to the story that made reading this book particularly hard. I would have liked to enjoy this book more but unfortunately I could not truely get into the story.




Overall I do not believe that I would recommend this particular book to anyone but the writer obviously tried.
particularly hard.

Mother's Day

Happy Mothers Day to all the mamas. I am spending the day with my hubby and Aedan, and we always include our angel Gabryel in our memories. My boys are my blessings, I am getting ready to head to bed with my Aedan boy. Goodnight!

Wordless Wednesday : Yo Aedan Aedan!

Garden Update!

These are my sprouts. Aren't they cute? Jeff put a low fence around the garden to detur the dogs from trapleing the plants...lets see how that works. It has been raining a lot lately and I haven't been able to get any pictures and they plants are a little over watered. Lets hope they are going to be ok.

I have some sprouts inside too. We have yet to find a dry day to transplant them, since this is our first garden (since I was little) we are figuring things out as we go. Things like dogs eat watermelon sprouts. and they did.

Here are the pumpkins. They are a little limp at the moment, we hope they are going to perk back up.

Here is a potato plant. We have at least 2 of the 4 we planted coming in.

Say hello to garlic. (and giant hunk of Missouri pollen behind garlic)

 

The poor lonesome watermelon plant. The dog ate the others. I am going to attempt to plant a few more seeds and see if they grow.

What else do we have? Onions...looks like garlic, but without that giant hunk of pollen loitering behind it.

We have yet to see strawberry, broccoli or carrots outside. We have tomatoes, carrots, and some herbs inside.